My recent lover (Mr. Charming) came back from Paris. He said he had brought some champagne for me and asked to visit me for the evening. I had planned my Saturday night with my fluff-er, but as he is only a back up I ditched him. He came over, all dressed up summer, sexy, tanned, mature, with his excellent clone, we planned to have a party, but the others were wet blankets, and so canceled the plan. I wanted to ask my girlfriend over for a threesome and he was into it. So he said he will go to bring some more booze and will come back by his bicycle since he said he doesn’t want to spend the whole night here and couldn’t drive drunk. He left and another lover (Mr. Oldie) that I met in a trip called me, he was enjoying my booze talk and flirtiest talks, I don’t use call waiting so he was calling me finding me busy so he thought I have ditched him. When I finally opened the door for him, first I found out he had come back with his car, then he just grabbed me and told me cancel all your calls I only wanna spend time with you not even a threesome!!!!! I had a butterfly in my stomach, I really wanted to be in his arms, so we drank on my beautiful balcony while I was all the time on his lap, and he took me to my bedroom. I knew that was the time I was waiting for so I changed to one my sexiest lingerie. With my caramel tanned skin, silky black dress short and tight, suiting my silky straight black hair. He started kissing me all over, I didnt let him to go down there, because he had confessed that he is not comfortable with cheating on his woman and he had bought the champagne in the city and from Paris! I didn’t let him to make love with me, it was his punishment! He spent the whole night with me, I couldn’t sleep a minute so we talked till morning.. He was all saying how sexy and hot I am.. That he can not stop thinking about me a minute, even my text messages turns him on.. My smell and my hair on his bed that he tries to keep.. And that if he could he would want to fuck me 50 times a day..
In the morning I asked him to leave cause I wanted to sleep, he was a lil pissed that I didn’t let him do anything to me, although cause I didn’t want him to have blue balls next day I blew him. Later on he didn’t answer my phone call to ask him what I should say for the night! I only call people once and that is it! On Sunday evening there was a BBQ party so I had to pretend that nothing has happened between us among friends. I always get ready for hours and so I m late, when I arrived there he was sitting under the alcove; damn he was so cold to me! I was wearing a white backless dress, I had to cover my boobs as they were fucking bruised, but couldn’t help my arms and thighs.. Everybody was asking what happened to you! Who was the wild guy with you last night, I wish I could say who it was, but he was starring at me so cold.. I said it was my girlfriend.. not a man this time.. I tried to spend my time with 2 friends who have a crush on me.. Then I started to mock my lover’s city and accent (which is actually so charming to me).. You know I am mean I know.. but come on! You know I am coming from a very high class decent family so everyone knows that I sometimes humiliate them if want to, I can be a bitchy brat.. It was so tense between us.. I left earlier, and text him to come over and apologize me.. he didn’t answer.. We fought on the phone till his wife called his other line and I dropped the phone.. He called me an hour later.. I had already passed out and my phone was on silent, he had texted me that he was “really sorry for his behavior and from that moment he won’t do anything that causes those kind of uncomfortable moment and ruin our friendship! And wished me to sleep tight” … what does it mean?!!!!!! He is not going to sleep with me anymore???
Today I woke up hung over, read his message minimum 10 times and decided to call him instead of texting. He didn’t answer and called me back later. I told him don’t act immature we are adults.. he is 6 years older than me! I talked to him kind that it doesn’t matter and I just want him to take responsibility for what he does, I told him my bruises hurt a lot and a word of sympathy wouldn’t kill him , and yes his response was “sorry I was drunk did something, no sympathy for you, anything else???”
I said goodbye nice and gentle, needed to smoke and cry immediately, I could write to him, tell everyone the truth, threaten him, cuss or do anything I used to do with my men but I have grown up, I have had many affairs before. Moreover being in love for the past year with my Mr. Love-Designer taught me a lesson to be less predictive and temperamental. So I am gonna swallow my pain. You never know what happens.. I just know he likes me so much, maybe it was just a reaction to his own feelings.. he has just moved to my city, I was travelling for three months, he had heard about me when he came here in February and seen my professional pictures on magazines and facebook and stuff, so he kept in touch with me on my linkedin all this time, his woman still lives in his ex city, she needs to find a job here first.. When I came back from my vacation he immediately asked me for a date and he didn’t tell me his not single until other friends told me! I feel so shitty, I need him to get back to me, make it up to me and ask me for forgiveness.. I am still thinking about my real love (Mr. Love- Designer) in Amsterdam.. I thought being with Mr. Charming is a good distraction but now I have an intolerant feeling for both of them! It is like, my heart is like an ocean, and it always has enough space for everyone!
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